— if this was two years ago, a craving would’ve ended up with me making & eating an entire pizza kit.
tonight: one medium tortilla, 2 tbsp of tomato sauce, 1/4 cup ground beef with spices, chopped green pepper, & 1/8 cup shredded mozzarella cheese.
..no where near the amount of calories & fat intake from before.
(& it was delicious!)
fuck this. I’ve been pulling every excuse in the book lately.. I’ve been eating crap-galore. I haven’t been keeping track of my intake. My body image is slowly taking a turn for the worse again. I’ve reached my limits of stress.
Tonight, I’m getting back on track. It’s already the middle of February, and I’m at the same weight I was last fall. I need to stop having these bouts of “I don’t care anymore”.. they do nothing but hold me back.
Since I wasn’t smart enough to tag my posts when I started this tumblr, I now face the long task of doing so.
Have mercy on my soul.
Why is it so hard to find, not to mention keep, motivation ?
I’m nowhere near satisfied with my current weight/figure, but I just can’t stop falling off the exercise-bandwagon. =\
I hate when you see these “tumblr-famous” fitblrs, and they have all these before-&-afters of their huge weight loss.. and they post all this stuff about how they’re “anti-thinspo”.. & how you need to accept your body..
BUT THEN, in every damn *after* photo they post, you can see them trying their absolute HARDEST to make it appear that they have a thigh gap. Most people on this planet don’t have knees that invert into each other every time they stand up. I’m sorry.
But when I (and others) can blatantly see that you’re contorting your body to make yourself have this godamn piece of shit *thiiiiiigh gaaaaap*, I lose respect for you. I don’t care if you’ve lost 200lbs in a single year ! Yes, you worked hard. Yes, you reached your goals. Congratulations for that, but you are a friggin’ hypocrite, Madame.
Fucking stand up like a normal human being, leave your knee caps alone, and let your damn thighs touch. Stop with this crap. You should be role models for all the other young girls on this website.. not filling their minds with the same bullshit they’ve been seeing everywhere else on this planet.
— my kitchen is pretty identical to this right now.. I am getting so fed up. If I had the money to piss away, I’d just buy everything paper/plastic.
Just wanted a smoothie.. that’s all I wanted. Haven’t even been in the freezer for two months, & the whole stash is gone. I’m ready to tear up my kitchen..
Weight loss Pro: less sweaty chub for the summer heat
Weight loss Con: less insulation for the colder weather
— this is all too relevant..
I feel like I should take photos of myself to submit in “curve-positive” tumblrs..